Paddington

Bouquet - "Paddington"

As a young girl, we traveled a lot by train, and I would never forget leaving Newington Green to head toward Paddington train station to an exciting destination. I grew up on the train quite literally - I have a precious love for train stations.

Anywho let us get into it -

He raised a question today - "why do I do the same thing over and over again. I want to change, but I don't think I can."

I paused.

Honestly, I was ecstatic because I was finally relieved that he understood me or maybe had a little more understanding about why this was happening, but there I go again - Yemi is assuming that him figuring it out is the answer.

Liessssss.

Finding me was the answer -

I went on with my afternoon as i ruminate over the conversation. I realized that all this time, it was about me - failing to understand that you can never transform if you do not let go and to change is to receive what Life has to offer you.

Today I decided it's officially over. I mean done! No - are you okay? How's it going? Oh! Hey, how's it been? Look at what I am doing? All small pleasantries are over. DEAD!

I have officially decided to let you go.

Am I mad? Hell no.

Was it a fun, exhilarating passionate, and bloody rollercoaster? Hell Yes!

The past few years have felt like a long-ass moment - I define this as "Dark night of the soul."

"There can be no rebirth without a dark night of the soul, a total annihilation of all that you believed in and thought that you were."― Hazrat Inayat Khan.

Letting go is love - knowing that everything must end and rebirth. Flowers have a beautiful way of showing us just that!